我的愛薇路
Author: Mian-mian
Reposted by The Sky of The Moon
The first time I met Vicki Zhao was June 1998, at the time Swallow just met Zi-wei after robbering Liang's Family. She was very popular at Taiwan at that time, but not in the mainland China. Before that, my roommates had watched 'Huan Zhu' and liked Vicki Zhao(I wonder they still love her)I heard they talked about Alec Su and her news. Although I heard of 'Vicki Zhao' many times, I didn't love her at first sight, I just thought why a girl had such bad voice? So terrible! Later, this girl became my love, and I pray for her everyday. The process was so dramatic.
The first time I loved Vicki Zhao was after A-level, starting from 'Old House Joy'. I would not forget that shot:Ji-Xiang raised her head, her eyes were so clear. Her beauty liked gentle breeze, crystal-clear. Ji-Xiang was very lovely, lovely, lovely! Although the appearance of Swallow in HZGGII was not satisfactory, I searched every beautiful shot of Wei-wei. Although the shot was very shot, it printed on my heart forever. Sometimes, I re-watch HZGG just for recalling the beauty of Wei-wei. I really want to keep those shots longer, letting more people to watch the beauty of Wei-wei! So strange! I have no feeling about beauty before, but I was shocked by Wei-wei. I see her beauty as a kind of happiness. I admitted that I love her pure and crystal-clear beauty at the beginning. No artists brought me such feeling. Her clear eyes are good proof. She has such clear eyes, she doesn't bad! Her 'no idea how to deal with' proved her pure. So I strongly agree the sentence, 'only one reason for loving Wei'.
I liked Vicki Zhao on 'Old House Joy', then I deeply loved her at 'HZGGII'. At 1999 summer vacation. I just came across the second A-level exam, the result was not good. I ran to my old house up in the hill. Suddenly one day, the song 'Thank you the sky, thank you the earth, thank you the sunshine shines the earth' came from the TV.
I nearly loved her when Swallow appeared at the first time on TV. When Swallow chatted with The Fifth Prince, they were really fooled around and banter in flirtation, very lovely. They were good pair. I loved Swallow memorizing poems most. She acted very good, very natural. In my first letter to her, I praised her as 'Big beauty at the end of the century'. So vulgar! I should say her beauty depends on her character, makes her more beautiful. Swallow's wilful, her pureness, her lovely, her naughty and her tears touched me.
Actually Wei-wei had taken much effort to act the crying scene. I thought that she acted very well and real, unfortunately not many audience thought that. I cried and heart was broken. Only a thoughtful, warm-hearted person can have those effects. Therefore I say 'her tears touched me; her laugh also touched me.'
At that period, life was simple. Every early morning I got down stairs to have breakfast, then sat before TV and watched the re-play of HZGG, then prepared lunch, went to the market, prepared and have lunch. At night, I watched HZGG again. I was satisfied and happy, forgot the A-Level exams. When I have time, I started to think of Wei-wei, thought of her lovely, thought of the special relationship between and Alec Su.
University life was boring, it made me think of Swallow's smile. Later, I went to Internet bar with my friend. On the third time, I opened a website and found that there were lots and lots of news about Wei-wei. I was very excited and after that I indulged in on-line. From every three days to everyday.
I remembered when I read the criticism on the internet about Wei, those were negative comments, I was hurt by a sentence and felt depressed. I even not on-lined for three days. Now I also have lingering effects, not dare to open the icon of criticism. Luckily, I have come across the experience and believe in my love. I understand I can't stop people criticism. I only can do is pick up my pen and express my feeling. I hope I can do something for her, though it's very little. There were several sleepless nights, just for thinking how to help her efficiently.
Loving Wei not just happy, but sad also. I longed for 'Sword Girl' but the result in Taiwan was not satisfactory. I was attacked by the news seriously, even couldn't concentrate on study. That extent of bitterness was more than I experienced it. I pained because she pained. Maybe it's love. She happy and I would happier than her.
Every lovely article touched me. I even cried for the,. The most unforgettable one was 'Bai ming yuen du zhe shang shu'. At the beginning I couldn't understand the meaning, but later I was moved by the words and feeling. Wei's fans made me touched again, so I joined you all without doubt.
If we didn't have a strong heart, it's hard to love Wei. Every time when there is bad news, we would feel painful. If you have to love her, we should be objective and full of courage.
A friend asked me how Wei affects me. I smiled and said,'loving Wei made me understand how to on-line, had my own computer, felt my writing skill is bad, made my life enriching, understood the world more deeply, made me more mature, more lenient, helped me keep-fit; and the negative effects were I have to buy all her magazines and newspapers, make my money out of control, also she made me hard to concentrate on study. I always hard to decide whether me is more important than her.
I am lazy and don't keen on studying new things, but Wei made me to learn internet. Now I go to the net cafe everyday. In the past I didn't think my father would buy me a computer. After my many requests, he bought one on 23 February morning. I was happy and didn't believe it's true. So buying computer is related to Wei-wei. She was the one that made me buying a computer. If not, my family will not have any computer in five years.
I worry about her everyday because of her simplicity; I worry she would work extremely hard to forget the hurt of heartbreak; I worry she would not gain peoples' support in Leon's concert; I worry she would be safe in Vietnam trip; I worry she didn't have good performance in 'Love & Rain'; I worry why the drama haven't broadcast; I worry audience would not accept her new image after broadcasting... How can I be fat under all these worries? One of the reasons that I chose my name was fat and muscle was not tough. My classmates asked me how to keep fit, and I said Wei-wei was the best keep fit medicine! I even want to laugh when I thinking of that.
On the other hand, I think my writing skill is not good. Therefore I go to the internet and bookshop, downloading some essays and read. I afraid I can't write any characters. As I have to leave messages for her, I do think my writing skill have to be improved.
I learn the diversification of human and complexity of the society from Wei. I learn the world is not so simple and understand it more and more. I can know peoples' bitterness and don't criticize people so easily. I also thank Wei that gave me happiness and made me mature.
Maybe you share similar experience with me.
I have used half a month to finish this article, I wrote it part by part so there may be not consistence in tone. I hope all of you would not mind.
Translated and edited by Alice (Hong Kong)
